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Title: Dreaming Of You
Author: Jaina-Jude
feedback: jaina_jude_solo@yahoo.com
Rating: PG

Summary: Padme reflects on the events of her short life with Anakin after his fall.

Disclaimer: I don't own the song "Dreaming of You". It's a great song and I cry every time I hear it. I just used it in this songfic because I thought that it fit. I don't own Star Wars either and won't be making any money at all until my training at DQ starts next month.

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Padme Skywalker heard the cries of the civilians of Naboo. It was midnight, and they were under attack. The Republic and life as she knew it would be over in a few short days. Padme got out of her bed and looked out the window of her quarters in Theed Palace.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

No. I am not going to cry. Not again. I've spent too many nights crying.  "Oh, Ani! How could you do this to me? To us?" Padme whispered to herself. I don't have anything left. My parents and most of my friends are dead. My children are gone; they won't even know me. And Anakin…

'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

I can't bear to think of him now. Love hurts worse than anything. And I love him still. After all of this, I still love Anakin. But I am afraid to think of him. I might lose the remainder of my strength. The memories rushed over her like a cool breeze…

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
dreaming about you and me

Meeting Anakin on Tatooine in Watto's junkshop. Anakin calling me an 'angel' and telling me that we would be married one day. And I laughed at that. Watching him win the Podrace and his freedom. Him helping the Naboo and Gungans defeat the Trade Federation. Could that day have been only 12 years ago?

Padme took a deep breath to calm herself. Obi-Wan Kenobi had shown her to do simple Jedi exercises.

Wonder if you ever see me and I
Wonder if you know I'm there

Seeing Anakin only a few times in the next ten years. He grew into a strong Jedi Knight and a handsome man. He had such a good voice. I would recognize it anywhere.

If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

The first time that we made love, on this very bed that I'm sitting on. Lying in each other's arms until daylight broke the next morning.

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you

Getting married to Anakin and becoming Padme Skywalker just a few years ago. Watching my Ani slowly transform into someone I didn't know. Into a monster…

So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you

Finding out that I was pregnant and disappearing for awhile. Obi-Wan taking care of me. Obi-Wan and Bail Organa taking Luke and Leia into hiding, away from me forever.

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

When Bail asked me where I wanted to go after my children were gone, I replied with the upmost calamity, "My fate will be no different than that of my people. I am going back to Naboo, my home." I always have had a soft spot for home...

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

The memories came to an end. "Were under attack! Were under attack! Force, save us!" Cried Sio Bibble. Chaos erupted throughout Theed. People were getting shot by stormtroopers while fleeing the city. But Padme didn't run or panic like the others in on Naboo and in other places far away.

Corazon (Sweetheart)
No puedo dejar pensar en ti (I can't stop thinking of you)
Como te necesito (How I need you)
Mi amor, como te extraño (My love, how I miss you)

Padme lost all control and cried into her pillow. Her nostrils burnt with the faint smell of fire decaying them. I still love him. After everything he has caused me and the rest of the galaxy, I still love him.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you

"Open the door!" called someone outside. Padme could feel the banging throughout her room. It continued for a few minutes. Padme didn't know what to do, so she stayed seated on her bed. She had nowhere to go or hide. As the banging ceased, Padme heard it.

And I still can't believe that
You came up to me and said

Lord Darth Vader spoke to his guards just outside of her room. Padme wiped her eyes and put her head down against her pillow. She thought of Anakin as she cuddled up in their bed. A small smile crossed her face.

I love you
I love you too

Anakin Skywalker was not outside of the room. He was not Darth Vader. Anakin Skywalker didn't exist at the moment. Maybe he would come back one day. And when he did, his Padme would be waiting for him.

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life

Darth Vader marched into her room alone. Padme had her eyes shut and her body relaxed. No words were exchanged between the former lovers and spouses. Vader lifted his crimson blade high above her head. But Padme was dreaming…

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly