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Summary: During ROTJ Darth Vader reflects on three moments when his "weak" side Anakin Skywalker had an influence on his actions.
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He was trying to meditate but his thoughts turned always back to one
person: Luke Skywalker. His son. No. Anakin Skywalker’s son. But soon Luke
would join the Dark Side and become "his" son. And if Luke wouldn’t join
him, he would kill him. This time he would, not like the last time after
he told him that he, Vader, was his father and then let him go. He knew
his order: Try to convince him of the Force of the Dark Side and if he
won’t join us – kill him. The last time he wanted to kill Luke he was ready
to do it. But when the moment came, he wasn’t able to do it. He even knew
why. His "weak" side Anakin
Skywalker, the small part that was left of him, somehow prevented him from killing Luke. He still wasn’t sure how
he could do this.Again.
The second time in a few years. When he had captured princess Leia Organa
and she had tried to flee he had the chance to kill her like his master
ordered. It would have been very easy. All he had to do was to press one
button and the princess and her liberators would have been dead in one
second. But again, for an unknown reason, the part of Skywalker in
mind had been able to prevent that. Well, maybe it was because of the princess’ eyes. They reminded him (and of course Skywalker) of HER. He always thought or at least hoped that he was able to control that small part of his mind after the first time, after he had turned to the Dark Side, Anakin Skywalker had controlled him, Darth Vader. It was a few weeks after he became Vader. He wasn’t dammed to his suit yet. Lord Sidius gave him the order to kill Queen Amidala. Well, ex-Queen from a planet that didn’t exist anymore.
He was able to break in her private chambers at the rebellion point.
He switched his new red lightsabre on and wanted to punch it in her heart.
But a few inches above her chest he stopped and wasn’t able to move further.
Finally he switched his
lightsabre off and moved away from Amidala’s bed. He couldn’t do it. The part of him that still loved her, Anakin Skywalker, didn’t "allow" Vader to kill Amidala. Instead he went to her dresser and took a nightgown and tore a piece of it apart. He put the piece of clothe in his pocket and went back to the bed. He knelt beside the sleeping form of Amidala and looked at her for a long time. Trying to treasure up every detail of her. He longed to see her beautiful eyes again but knew it was impossible. After a few minutes, which seemed hours for him, he stood up and turned to go. But after a few steps he walked back to the bed and bend down to kiss Amidala softly on her forehead. He noticed a small smile on her lips and looked for the last time at his wife. Then he turned and left the bedroom and the station unnoticed.On his way back to Sidius he killed a small animal and spread the blood over the piece of the nightgown he had taken from Amidala. He gave Sidius the cloth and said it was
Amidala’s blood on it. When he left his new master to go to his room it was as if he would awake from a trance. He couldn’t tell why he didn’t kill Amidala or why he did tell his master that he had done it. But he was sure that he would be able to prevent that Anakin would take control again.
A small voice in his mind told him that it wouldn’t be necessary to
tell Sidius about this, that he would be able to destroy the last bit of
Anakin Skywalker alone. 'No', Vader had thought so many years ago and after
the "Leia Organa accident“ like he
called it "it isn’t necessary to tell the emporer.“
'But it happened again.' Vader thought as he walked through one of the
many corridors ofthe second Death Star. He heard that the hunters had caught
a rebell and wanted to bring the captive himself to the emporer. 'But it
won’t happen again. If
Luke won’t join us, I will kill him. Anakin Skywalker won’t influence me again. Never again.'